School life

 My Life so Far…

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In 2012, I was admitted to an ICSE school from a state board because I wanted it. My parents didn't think that changing the Boards would make any difference but I guess it was me who wanted to speak fluent English like my NRI cousin and  today here I am, an ex- ICSE Student. 

In 2022, I made the decision of studying Science from a dummy school. It was both a good and a bad decision. Good because I got exposed to the NEET-JEE rat race and experience it too and bad because I couldn't enjoy my last 2 years of school life. Also I wanted to get my academic validation from University like Oxford (😢) . Moving on, I took both biology and Mathematics in 11th because my father wanted me to become a doctor. I was also admitted in Aakash institute because my friends who wanted to sit for NEET were also getting admitted there. I did the orientation class and I was like "I am done. Not here anymore" I left Aakash. One of my close friends who was also admitted in that institute, even changed her stream. I changed biology with computer science. No more institutes 🙃

At the end of 11th, I was in computer tuition with another friend of mine when our computer sir showed us the newspaper advertisement of Allen institute and told us to atleast sit for the scholarship examination. I jokingly sat and got enrolled. 

I found my niche on the very first day after joining. It was kinda a very good decision in my life. 

I think if I didn't get admitted to Allen in 12th, I could have been in real trauma and depression. I am the backbencher girl and never had any favourite teachers. But after 12 years I got 3 of the best teachers who have a plethora of knowledge and experience. Most importantly I got to know how to love and manage studies. And my classmates? They are literally the best. It was both a competitive and fun environment there. We helped each other through our studies and held each other's hands during bad results. I found so many friends whom I can tag as "Real ones". I don't wanna mention their names here but in case you guys are reading I will really really miss you. 

 I am grateful for all the decisions I have taken and also am thankful for the decisions I haven't taken. At that moment I might have cried my eyes out because I couldn't do that but this future me is happy for not doing it. Like going to Kota, Rajasthan for my JEE preparation. Life could have been totally different but in these 2 most crucial years I am thankful to my parents for being there with me.

I have them to motivate me from my dark times. There were days, I would get panic attacks and see my mother come running towards me after seeing me howling and crying because I can't take all these exam pressures. She is my strength and am grateful to that. Also my father, who might not know much about academic stress and mental health but thanks to him for not putting pressure on me and leaving me fight with it alone. He wanted to get a psychologist for me but I think it wasn't needed for me at that time. 

Today, I am writing this sitting in my room and on the very last day of the year (31st December 2023). Only 28 days are left and my school life will be over. My future will totally depend on the next 2 months of back to back exams. The exams I give, the marks I get  and most importantly the college I get enrolled to.

I am thankful to myself for not giving up yet.

Okay bye,

Until next time, all the best for life dear readers. Fighting 💓